I’m reading “Falling into Grace” by Adyashanti, which I think I’ve mentioned a few times, and I find myself more and more challenged with each page I read.
This week in particular I’v read about control and how it impacts our perception of ourselves and our perception of others.
“When we’re in our egos, we’ll naturally try to control each other, as well as ourselves. We’re trying to control life. But I’m sure you’ve noticed that you can’t control life. The sun comes up when it wants, and it sets when it wants, not when you or I want it to set. The rain comes whether you want it to or not, and the moon rises whether you want it to or not, just like it sets. And the same is true with each moment, and with everyone we meet.
On the surface, the illusion of control makes us feel safe and able to create a life for ourselves of comfort and security, manipulating our lives based on what we think we need. Yet, in actuality, we have no such control. Still, the illusion of it is amazing in its design and its complexity, because after all, almost every human being falls for it. Almost every human being thinks, “I’m in control of my life,” except when times get really difficult”
There’s so, so much to unpack in those two paragraphs about why we desire control and what motivates us to so, but instead of getting into it and picking it apart, this week I’m going to start with this:
When I feel the urge to control something, I’m going to step back, release that feeling, and let the uncertainty of the wind bring me to where I need to be.